Nov 20

Tonight we had Kurt’s memorial service. His roommate Vince and his closest friends read some memories, stories, and prayers in his honor. I gave Sara the poem The Dash for them to read because they couldn’t find one. Mason put together one of the best slideshows I have ever seen. He had pictures of Kurt on all his travels and had video of all his closest friends talking about him. Someone also played a song on the piano and it was such a sad song I started crying immediately. I didn’t know Kurt that well at all but from people talking about him I feel like I know him. Also from people talking about I feel like I should have known him. He was such a funny essentric person who was kind but sarcastic and could laugh at himself. He sounded like the perfect guy and we could use some more Kurt’s in the world. It is so sad and unfair for his life to end so soon when he had so much to offer. He could have made such a difference in the world. He affected to many people in just 72 days I can not imagine what he could have done with another 50 years. I guess God just has a plan for us all and I pray for Kurt and that he watches over us and guides his family and friends to a place of no pain and to live their lives the way he would want them to. It makes me think more about how I want to live my life and what I can do to change to not have a care in the world. Kurt lived for himself and lovingly accepted everyone for who they were. He didn’t judge and took everything for what it was. This is a unique and special gift that most people don’t have. We tend to judge right off the bat and turn our heads the other way. Kurt has taught me to give more than one, two, or three changes to have someone prove themselves to me. We all are different and bring something into this world and judging someone that may be “different” or have different views than you is not a way to go through life. Everyone deserves a chance to show their true colors and deserves to be liked for who they are. No one should have to change who they are for someone else to like or accept them. Kurt has given me a vision of who I want to be when I go back home and into the real world. One can only strive to be as amazing as Kurt and be able to love whole heartedly like he did. Kurt I am thinking of you and hope you can guide me to become a better person and to conquer my fears and to not be afraid to do something crazy or out of the blue. Everyone needs laughter in their life consistently. Thank you for showing us your gift.